The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him;
though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand.
I was young and now I am old,
yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken
or their children begging bread.
They are always generous and lend freely;
their children will be a blessing.
Turn from evil and do good;
then you will dwell in the land forever.
For the Lord loves the just
and will not forsake his faithful ones.
December has me feeling all types of ways. Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that this time last year, I was praying and praying for my grandmother to get healed of a weird disease ( her lungs were failing and she had water in her lungs and heart). I trusted God– my entire family did. But on December 5, she went to be with the Lord. I remember the moment my daddy called, I knew at once that he was bearing bad news. But I braced myself and carried on. I was in New York performing a joyous christmas concert with our school chorale. I was smiling and singing but inside I was dying. When we finally got back to school past midnight, I wept my eyeballs out, and couldn’t sleep for days afterwards. I was devastated on so many levels, but today is not the day for that story.
This year, life is different. This year, I know that at this very moment, I have joy inside of me. I have no idea why and how, but I know it’s there. It’s there and as sure the dawn, it’s there to stay.
This time last year my relationship was in shambles. Lol. But this year, it’s different.
That also counts for something.
This year I have a song of joy to sing to God. This time last year brought my first real experience of raw, cry-myself-to-sleep-every-night kind of pain. It wasn’t just about my grandmother or about my relationship. It was about everything. But God found me and wrapped His arms around me. I’ve never felt lonely, even at my deepest and darkest moments. He’s been there all along.
Here is a song I’ve just fallen in love with
Scripture quote from here.