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Do you ever practice your testimony?

This is something I do a lot. I stand in front of mirrors practicing for my future life. I lead bible studies in my room, by myself. I lead praise and worship with a large choir behind me. I attend interviews, receive awards, go for book signings, receive degrees, pass exams with flying colors, buy houses and cars for my parents, support my friends through difficult times, rejoice in the good times, celebrate my 50 years’ wedding anniversary, tear up when my children tell me how amazing I am, etcetera. Yeah, I can tell you vivid daydreams about every single one of these occasions and more. 

In addition, I talk myself into doing things. I begin my day with some motivation, because getting out of bed happens to be one of the most challenging things I do all day.

When I want something from God, I practice giving the testimony. I practice how I’ll tell my friends about it. Where we’d be when I’m telling them about it. What words and what gestures I’d use, and what emotions I’d display.

I’m beginning to sound crazy, but really, when I want something, I dream and dream and dream about it. Recently though, I’ve started putting in the work to bring my dreams to fruition. Some of this work means hours spent in prayers, some of it means sleeping only a few hours during exams week. (I know it’s not healthy, but what’s a dreamer girl to do?)

I’ve written about faith and complacency on this blog. I wrote about how I really wanted something to happen, but I was afraid of praying for it because I kept second guessing whether or not it really was God’s will for my family at that point in time.

It’s been an entire year now, and I better understand the role of our prayers. Of course God wants the best for us. Of course God wants to give us things that we want. He wants us to make bold, audacious prayers, believing that He will grant our hearts’ desires.

But as Christians, we must remember that whether or not we get what we want, we must love God regardless. We must honor His will in our lives, and we must trust Him still.

I get worried about praying too hard for something, because I keep wondering what I’d do if God says no, or asks me to wait. You know the thing about don’t love too deeply, so that when it goes awry, you don’t hurt too deeply?

I don’t know, I don’t know.

What do you guys think?

Do you stop yourself from wanting something too much, so that you don’t get hurt when you don’t want it?

Or do you let yourself run wild with your dreams and pray and pray until they come to fruition. And if so, how do you handle the possible disappointment? Are you more of a better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all?

I’m genuinely curious about this, so let me know in the comments below!

Till next time,

May God’s grace keep you, and may all His desires for you come true!

 

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Hey, my name is Alheri and I'm obsessed with Jesus. This blog is me keeping my promise to Him for answering a prayer. Purple is my favorite color and my favorite scripture is Jeremiah 32:27 which says "Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh: is there anything too hard for me?" (KJV) You can contact me at msalheri@gmail.com

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  1. This post really blessed me, to the point of tears. I have been believing God for something, a lot of things, impossible things. The things that He has promised me, and I sometimes get that “what if’ thought in the back of my mind. Then I remember not to focus on the “what if”, like “what if he breaks my heart?” but on He, Who is, I AM. When I recall that I am waiting, trusting, and believing in God and not a man there is no disappointment because even a delayed promise is still a promise that is working for my good. Be Blessed sis.

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  4. Just realized I am not the only crazy one. The number of times I have spoken good things happening and then, by some other powers, they mess up, countless! All the same, I keep on talking to my mirror and I know that through that, great things will definitely happen. Positivity is key and I am trying to practice that and pray till God Himself gets tired of me and just gives them to me. 🙂

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  5. Chizzy says

    I practice my testimony a lot. I love the mirror so much because I just take a sit and talk to my self. few days ago, I practiced where Mo Ibrahim was interviewing me.

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  6. I do visualize my desires a lot. I pray for them too. But I don’t stand infront of mirrors to rehearse like you do…That’s another level! Haha! And I don’t think there’s been a time I was praying for something and stopped to wonder what if God says no. I just go ahead and ask what I want. If I receive them, Hallelujah! If not, well, still God be praised! Lol (I’m learning to be a good loser)… But I begin to wonder when there’s delay or He goes silent on me…Also, I’m for loving and losing than not loving at all. I think it’s part of life to not always have our way or what we want. 🙂

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    • HAHAHA! You’re laughing at me for my standing in front of mirrors!
      Also, it may be life to love and not have your way, but it’s definitely very painful. And sometimes I wonder if it’s necessary.
      What do you think?

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      • I think the fact that we might not have our way doesn’t mean we shouldn’t pursue what we desire. I think that also falls under the category of fear? Fear of failure or fear of disappointment or fear of rejection? Concerning love for a partner, I don’t doubt there could be disappointment and heartbreak when you open up to love. But in as much as that might be inevitable, you can never find the one that will “sweep you off your feet” and give you fulfilment in every way if you decide not to love again. God’s got that for everyone, I believe – so long as marriage is in His purpose for that person.
        But I also believe we have an advantage in this area. We have the Holy Spirit. In as much as love is an emotion, I believe opening up to love someone to ‘that extent’, should be a decision made after spending time in prayer concerning that person. When you know your approval or opening up was based on a word or direction from God, it gives you security for difficult times ahead for that relationship, plus you always know you have God’s backing.
        But that aside, even love brewed in the bosom of Jesus can turn sour. All the same, we shouldn’t stop ourselves from loving.

        And let’s look at loving others as a calling for every believer. Especially if you’re a Christian leader, you can never ever decide not to love because of bad experiences. The moment a Christian leader decides not to love again, that’s the day he or she is disqualified for service. We can’t do anything without love – especially in ministry. And it’s in ministry that people will hurt us most. The whole purpose of our calling is love (1 Timothy 1:5). Love is the most essential virtue in Christian ministry (1 Corinthians 13) And love is a fruit of the Spirit.

        So in short, we can’t let fear of disappointment keep us from pursuing what we want. The fact that a boy or girl breaks our hearts does not mean we shouldn’t love again. Because when the one Good sends comes, we better be open for love or we lose that one too. But to avoid disappointment in this area of love, we need to wait on God and seek the Holy Spirit’s help. And concerning love for ministry, no matter how much we are hurt because we loved so much, we are not allowed to stop loving. It is our calling. It is a fruit of the spirit. Deciding not to love is to willfully reject the Holy Spirit. So, no doubt it’s painful sometimes to love, it’s still very necessary. 🙂
        (forgive me, I know it’s quite long for a comment… HeHehe 😊)
        But this is what I think. You?

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