I try to live my life according to God’s will. Before making any major decision, I ask the Lord for guidance and for His blessings. In the past, though, I have found myself fixating on things that honestly have little bearing on my life. I have sought God’s will so extensively that I have borderline led myself into worry or anxiety.
But something changed recently: I now rest in the Lord.
In the past, I’d fixate on whether I was making the right decision, or whether I was walking in the right path, and whether I was offending God.
One thing I’m learning is that with God, there is a range of actions that we can take, there is liberty and there is freedom.
Many of us grow up with the image of God as a strict prison master, you step out of line and you get a lash of the cane. Who can blame us? Even some the adults around us don’t fully comprehend the grace and love of God, so what do they have to teach?
But God leads by the hand, He holds and He comforts. He directs and He guides. Most importantly, He has sent us a permanent companion.
Last night, I was thinking about the times when I’ve wanted someone to speak with, someone to encourage me, someone to be by my side, but not had someone readily available.
You know how you have the friend who’s good at giving school advice, one who gives great life advice, one who can help with the taxes, one who knows how to deal with matters of the heart, or with Christian matters, and so on? Yeah, I have friends that fulfil all those roles pretty well, but when my school work-advice-friend isn’t readily available, I tend to panic slightly or shut into myself and try to figure things out.
Last night though, I thought about God, the one friend who’s everything and anything we need Him to be. It’s really interesting thinking about God as my friend. Telling Him about the most random things while I pray, or asking Him the most random questions as I go about my day.
The journey has been sweet, the relationship has been pleasant.
Consider these verses from Psalm 139:
Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
When I awake, I am still with you.
I used to fear that I would take the wrong step, that I would fall out of God’s will for my life, or that I would completely lose my faith. But as I grow and learn that God’s hand is over my life, the fear of the future is completely gone. There is joy, peace, and contentment when I think about where God is leading me.
If you’re ever afraid of where you’re headed in God, please rest. You’re not powerful enough to overturn God’s will. If you submit to Him, He will lead you and guide you to where He wants you to do.
God is not petty that He keeps grudges, He is not mean that He withholds useful information. He wants to dwell with us, He enjoys our company, and He’ll do anything to keep it.