All posts tagged: fears

What if? (Some thoughts on Houses in Banana Island, well not really, but yeah!)

What if, true to all our claims, we dropped everything at the foot of the cross? What if we really trusted God to take away all our pain, and brokenness, and insecurities? As I ate breakfast this morning, I thought about Linda Ikeji– the Nigerian blogger who has recently acquired a luxury home for upwards of $3million. On her blog yesterday, she wrote about her very humble beginnings and how she her blogging passion has made her a homeowner in one of Nigeria’s most priced neighbourhoods. That made me think about my life and sadly, my thoughts were mostly pessimistic, depressing, and sad. Yesterday I spoke with a friend who told me her MCAT scores weren’t as high as she would have liked. While trying to encourage her, I humorously reminded her that Linda Ikeji did not change her life’s passion, but doggedly followed through, and is now living a life that existed in her dreams. I mentioned that Linda Ikeji did not desert her metaphorical Medical School dreams, but followed through up till her …

What now?

Well, well, well! Friends, about my last post, ALA results are out! However, I won’t indulge your curiosity because this blog isn’t about my brother, and his school applications 🙂 This blog is about this often confused young girl (or woman, whaaa?) throwing herself into the strong muscular arms of a God that’s bigger than the biggest, and wiser than the wisest. This is me making sense of my thoughts, and hoping that as I share my journey, the Holy Spirit will inspire someone to lend me (or gain?) some wisdom. I write words I wish someone will speak to me in the different situations I face. So if you want to be creepy, you can call my number and read my blog posts aloud to me. I kid, I kid. That said, please remember that if there are things you want me to write about/ questions you have about stuff, I’m definitely open to writing about those! Anyway, here is today’s topic, which is a follow up from last time’s. Picture this: God has …

…and who do you think you are?

Once upon a time, something happened. And I got upset. I got upset because I felt like I tried so hard and do all I could to serve God and to do His will (although I often fail terribly). So why, I thought, did all that happen to me? Why didn’t He warn me earlier, why did He watch me fall into the trap again? It was the same story of someone doing something, or I doing something, falling short, then feeling bad, getting upset, and finally asking “Oh Lord, why didn’t you warn me ahead of time? Why did you not also prevent me from this? Why do you not help me?” But that day, just as I was about to launch a big, annoying rant about how God is good to other people and bla bla bla, something in my heart told me to shut my mouth. A little detour. I find it very difficult sharing the struggles I face in my spiritual life, as I often fail in extremely embarrassing and shameful ways. But it always occurs to me that my mistake could be …

When Jesus Says No

This is the final trio of quoting Pastor Adeboye. My offer still stands, in fact, it is now a plea. Send me your email address, and I will pay for you to receive Open Heavens devotional in your inbox daily.  Today’s quote is about God saying “no” to our requests. There are some requests I have made in my life that God has said “no” to. He says no in order to discipline us, teach us to look to Him for sustenance, or to teach us patience. I pray that as we continue to walk with the Lord, He will help us to discern His voice especially in the dark times, and give us patience to wait for His time. Here is Pastor Adeboye’s quote: There are times God will say “No” to a beautiful request. When this happens, the one asking feels disappointed. But to the One who has all power, there are greater things compared to what is being asked for. In spite of all the prayer efforts you have invested in certain requests, God can …

Speaking Volumes to my Soul

Hello everyone, It’s been a while, sorry. I am that friend who promises to call/ text back and plans to, but just never gets around to it. Sigh. That should really be a Lenten goal at some point. Have you read my February Recap yet? Please do! Today, I want to share two songs that are currently speaking volumes to my soul. They are great for calming the nerves, and for when we need to remind ourselves that Our Father has promised to take care of us. The first song is called Praise You in this Storm. This song is reminiscent of the last days at ALevels when I was awaiting college decisions and life was filled with uncertainty about my future, and the grief of leaving a school I loved so much. But today, I’m more than grateful to God for the opportunity to be in Mount Holyoke College. This leads me to the second song- Already There. It reminds me that no matter what, God knows where He has planned for me to be, …